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ah, NYE. definitely not ready for 2012.

2011 has not been kind. what i felt mostly this year would have been heartache. pain. and loneliness.

yes friends are always there for me, im grateful. but there’s always a small part of me. crying. bleeding. yearning. and it just hurts too much sometimes its unbearable i take it out on myself, physically.

i cant wait for the day this feeling goes away.

sigh. another year of disappointments? i hope not. yet i am doubtful of what the year might bring.

blah. this is exactly why i’m single. because i let myself be.

the best part of a relationship is before you get together. probably the sweetest too.

i don’t know. i really don’t think it’s possible for me to get into another relationship ever again. i’ve never even been in anything serious. i’m such a stupid fool.

ahhh. i hate it when a guy gets so clingy. i am pretty sure i have no feelings for him. i thought i did cos i guess i was flattered he likes me maybe? then now what. i gotta answer to all your questions? who i’m going out with, where i am, what i’m doing? i really just don’t feel like answering those questions.

LOVE?

pardon me, i have long forgotten that feeling.

how do i convey hurt to people? is it even possible?

i sound so pathetic right now.. its just sad. i miss all the friends i had. i lost them all thanks to 1 person. but these people aren’t worth it. or at least, that’s what i tell myself.

there comes a time where i need to decide if i really wanna salvage it. or rather, what’s left of it.

you’re so pathetic, tingwei.. you should really feel sorry for yourself.

so many things on my mind right now.. never ending list of pains.